Today, I think I overcame my hitherto impassable mental block, the one I always get between pages 50 and 70, that indicates I've hit the "swampy middle." The term "great swampy middle" wasn't invented by me. In fact, I have no desire to discover who first coined the term because I have no desire to utter it ever again; though, I fear that's just wishful thinking. Of course, I'm going to talk about, think about, and confront the GSW again. I always get bogged down in the middle. It's stopped me from completing whole books. It hits me in longer stories, too. The hideous abyss waiting for writers at the middle of a piece of fiction is an inevitable occupational hazard.
I've been struggling with this novel for several weeks. The first 50 pages emerged quickly. And, in all seriousness, I think they're very good pages, some of my best. So I can't allow myself to seriously entertain thoughts of abandoning the project. I have to see it through if only for those good pages.
The only way out is to make an outline. I hate outlines. When I write, I want to be in a creative trance, driving the muse's burning chariot through the dark firmament of hell. Or something like that. Bukowski promised that you'd know the gods and your nights would flame with fire. When his promise comes true, it really is the best thing. When the divine chariot is half-submerged in the swamp, when it backfires a cloud of rancid bio-diesel and won't even start, when the muse doesn't even show up because she was partying with some publishing industry types last night and has to sleep it off, when the way forward is just a mucky green-brown maze of shit-streaked walls, you need a scaffold. You need to build a ladder out of the swamp. You need to draw a map. So that's what I did.
I will always hate outlines. But now the editor part of my brain can see the way forward. Now I have a schematic. I know I can follow it—if everything doesn't change tomorrow, if the muse doesn't laugh at me and send me a dream that completely turns my scaffold upside-down. That happens, too. We'll see.